Times changes roll with it

Sitting on the edge of my bed at 2.41 a.m EST, I kind of feel like Jerry Maguire, you know the first scene in which he starts writing in the middle of the night. But I dont think I have anything as inspiring and jaw dropping as he wrote. But I too have a story to tell. 

As I listen to Mohit Chauhan singing " TUM SE HI " from Jab We Met( a movie which has various stories to my life) it reminds me of a simpler time. The movie came out around december 07 and it was an instant hit in India. It was during a time when life was easy, when there were no issues of money, marks , time schedules, assignments, projects, reports etc. 8 months later everything has changed. I still wish I could go back to that life. I loved that life. I dont think I could find anyone in my batch who could say " College life sucks ". Waking up at 12pm, going to jhoops( our local dhaba) for lunch and a movie made my day.There was no pressure on me at all. I was no college stud but I definitely felt like one. 

 Mohit Chauhan said it all in this song . I was in love with the time this song came out more than the song itself. I still listen to this song as it reminds of that college life. 

Sangeet with his jumping around and his paunch [:D] , Tippu with his constant mind changing, PPk with his whining , Alok with his liverpool football club, G with the most unclean room in the whole of India , Nithin with his constant hunt for a free computer to steal a game of age of empires, Shankar with his constant phone chattering( you cud never tell if he was talking on to you or Pooja ). Life was made back then. Then there was the constant irritating Kaveri and Manoj. We were always in constant competition for the position of " most useless person in college". Fridays and Saturdays were better( not that there was much difference). 

Now I have so many constraints and variables thrown around at me, funding, assignments, grades, temporary work, living expenses. Its not like this life is difficult and I hate it, well actually I do like it, but then thats just a part of life, I guess you just learn to adapt to newer environments in life. 

I do feel different now, going back to that old life would be like wearing and old dress- It wouldnt fit me anymore. I think in my heart and body I am still really really young. I keep jumping around all the time, never take things too seriously, I dont worry too much and for some stupid reason I am always confident ( No matter how many times I fail ).he he. I am probably the only person who would after 4 supples have the courage to return to engineering and education , and that too at a huge expense and what not.

I wish I could have all friends back in this life, it would be so much easier then. I dont think I have trusted any 12 people more than anyone else ever.Somethings should never be forgotten. Those bhaat sessions, those Cricket matches, those farewells where people cried ( well I tried and failed at that too), that last day of ragging, the parties with the legendary junior mallus-unbeatable. 

In a way our lives are very similar to Jerry Maguires. A man who has everything loses it all, but he holds on to something, and holds onto to it harder when he is in trouble. I too hope for a happier simpler life, but there are situations we need to go through for those. Thats how this world works. If it was that simple everyone would be doing it. If at the end of each turmoil in life if you could hold your head up and say " I learnt something and next time I can do this better " that is success which is unmatchable.